Trust. The word on my heart for this season of life. I had a beautiful time this weekend at the IF:Local gathering here in Portland. It awakened a part of me that has been dormant. So much has been on my heart in the last heavy months of 2014 and this gathering brought me healing in such a deep way.

2014 was a beautiful year that brought about much growth, but at the expense of much pain. I miscarried a child at 13 weeks in September. I have never had such heartbreak and such love at the same time. From the moment I knew I was losing our child, God gave me so much strength. I know this because I had none, I was empty and He filled me. Last fall and this winter have been a battle. Me, always wanting to control and God, always reminding me to trust.

At the beginning of the year, like most couples, B and I sat and talked about the last year and the new.  What do we want more of? Less of? We agreed on many changes that we needed to make and many dreams to see out this year.  We agreed to serve our friends, family, and church more.  For me this has meant diving head first into wonderful projects and studies. B is going to finish his album the first part of the year.  And H, he is just learning and growing every day.

Happy New Year Hiking.

Here we are on our way into this new year. I am letting go. God, I am letting go.